1) ONCE I admit it...what's to say...yeah... I'll relive it...without pain...mmm... Backstreet lover on the side of the road I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes, I pray... Once upon a time I could control myself Ooh, once upon a time I could lose myself, yeah... Oh, try and mimic what's insane...ooh, yeah... I am in it...where do I stand? Oh, Indian summer and I hate the heat I got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet...I pray... Once upon a time I could control myself Ooh, once upon a time I could lose myself, yeah, yeah... You think I got my eyes closed But I'm lookin' at you the whole fuckin' time... Ooh, once upon a time I could control myself, yeah... Once upon a time I could lose myself, yeah, yeah, yeah... Once, upon a time I could love myself, yeah... Once upon a time I could love you, yeah, yeah, yeah... Once (4x) Yeah...once, once...yeah, yeah... Yeah...yeah, yeah...yeah, yeah...oww... 2) EVEN FLOW Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again Oh, Feelin' maybe he'll see a little better set a days, ooh yeah Oh, hand out, faces that he sees time again ain't that familiar, ooh yeah Oh, dark grin, he can't help, when he's happy looks insane, oh yeah Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away, yeah...ooh... Oh, someday yet, he'll begin his life again...life again...life again... Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read, ooh yeah Oh, prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything Oh, feelin', understands the weather of the winters on its way Oh, ceilings, few and far between all the legal halls of shame, yeah... Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away, yeah... Someday yet, he'll begin his life again Oh, whispering hands, gently lead, lead him away...him away, him away... Yeah! Woo...ah yeah...fuck it up... Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he don't know, so he chases them away... Ooh, someday yet, he'll begin his life again, yeah Oh, whispering hands, gently lead, lead him away...him away...him away... Yeah! Woo...uh huh...yeah, yeah, mommy, mommy... 3) ALIVE Son, she said, have I got a little story for you What you thought was your daddy was nothin' but a... While you were sittin' home alone at age thirteen Your real daddy was dyin', sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we talked... Oh I, oh, I'm still alive Hey, I, I, oh, I'm still alive Hey I, oh, I'm still alive Hey...oh... Oh, she walks slowly, across a young man's room She said I'm ready...for you I can't remember anything to this very day 'Cept the look, the look... Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare... I, I'm still alive Hey I, but, I'm still alive Hey I, boy, I'm still alive Hey I, I, I, I'm still alive, yeah Ooh yeah...yeah yeah yeah...oh...oh... Is something wrong, she said Well of course there is You're still alive, she said Oh, and do I deserve to be Is that the question And if so...if so...who answers...who answers... I, oh, I'm still alive Hey I, oh, I'm still alive Hey I, but, I'm still alive Yeah I, ooh, I'm still alive Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah 4) WHY GO She scratches a letter into a wall made of stone Maybe someday another child won't feel as alone as she does It's been two years, and counting, since they put her in this place She's been diagnosed by some stupid fuck, and mommy agrees, yeah... Whoa...yeah...hey yeah yeah... Why go home... (3x) She seems to be stronger, but what they want her to be is weak She could play pretend, she could join the game, boy She could be another clone...ooh...whoa...ah yeah... Ooh... Why go home? (4x) What you taught me...put me here...don't come visit...mother... Sting me... Whoa...ooh... Why go home? (4x) What you taught me...put me here...don't come visit...mother, mother, yeah... Why go home? (7x) Whoa... 5) BLACK Hey...oooh... Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay Were laid spread out before me as her body once did All five horizons revolved around her soul As the earth to the sun Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn Ooh, and all I taught her was everything Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds Of what was everything? Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... I take a walk outside I'm surrounded by some kids at play I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning How quick the sun can, drop away And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass Of what was everything? All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything... All the love gone bad turned my world to black Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all that I'll be...yeah... Uh huh...uh huh...ooh... I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star In somebody else's sky, but why Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine 6) JEREMY At home, drawing pictures of mountain tops with him on top Lemin yellow sun, arms raised in a V And the dead lay in pools of maroon below Daddy didn't give attention Oh, to the fact that mommy didn't care King Jeremy the wicked...oh, ruled his world... Jeremy spoke in class today... (2x) Clearly I remember pickin' on the boy Seemed a harmless little fuck Ooh, but we unleashed a lion... Gnashed his teeth and bit the recess lady's breast... How can I forget? And he hit me with a surprise left My jaw left hurtin'...ooh, dropped wide open Just like the day...oh, like the day I heard Daddy didn't give affection, no... And the boy was something that mommy wouldn't wear King Jeremy the wicked...oh, ruled his world Jeremy spoke in class today... (3x) Woo... (14x) Try to forget this...try to forget this... Try to erase this...try to erase this... From the blackboard... Jeremy spoke in class today... (2x) Jeremy spoke in, spoke in... (2x) Jeremy spoke in class today... Woo... (29x) Woooooohhh...spoke in, spoke in... Woooooohhh...uh huh, uh huh... 7) OCEANS Hold on to the thread The currents will shift Glide me towards... You know something's left And we're all allowed To dream of the next Oh, ohh the next, time we touch... Oooh... (4x) You don't have to stray Tho oceans away Waves roll in my thoughts Hold tight the ring... The sea will rise... Please stand by the shore... Oh, oh, oh, I will be... I will be there once more... Oooh... (4x) Uh huh, oh yeah... (2x) 8) PORCH What the fuck is this world Running to, you didn't Leave a message, at least I Coulda' learned your voice one last time Daily minefield, this could Be my time, 'bout you? Would you hit me? (2x) Oh oh oh...oh whoa whoa...ow... All the bills go by, and Initiatives are taken up By the middle, there ain't gonna be any middle any more And the cross I'm bearing home Ain't indicative of my place Left the porch (2x) Oh oh oh... Hear my name, take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand, walk beside me I just need to say... Hear my name, take a good look This could be the day Hold my hand, lie beside me I just need to say I could not take a-just one day I know, when I would not ever touch you Hold you...feel you...ever hold...never again... Yeah... (12x) 9) GARDEN She don't wander in...don't wander in here, she... She don't wander in here...don't wander in here... The direction of the eye, so misleading The defection of the soul, nauseously quick I don't question, our existence I just question, our modern needs She don't wander in...don't wander in here, she... She don't wander in here... I will walk...with my hands bound I will walk...with my face blood I will walk...with my shadow flag Into your garden, garden of stone...yeah... After all is done, and we're still alone I won't be taken, yet I'll go...with my hands bound I will walk...with my face blood I will walk...with my shadow flag Into your garden, garden of stone I don't show...I don't share... I don't need, yeah...what you have to give... Oooh, I will walk...with my hands bound I will walk...with my face blood I will walk...with my shadow flag Into your garden, garden...oh... I will walk with my hands bound I will walk into your garden, garden of stone... I don't know...I don't care... I don't need you for me to live...yeah, yeah, yeah, oh... Uh huh huh... (8x) 10) DEEP On the edge, windowsill Ponders his maker, ponders his will To the street below, he just ain't nothin' But he's got a great view, and he sinks the needle deep, yeah... Whoa, can't touch the bottom In too deep, yeah...oh, can't touch the bottom Oh, on the edge of a know-nothin' town Feelin' quite superior, the aged come To the sky above he just ain't nothin' But he's got a great view, and he sinks a burning knife deep, yeah... Ooh, can't touch the bottom In too deep, yeah...uh huh, can't touch the bottom In too deep... Ohhh...Ohhh... Ow... On the edge of a Christmas clean love Young virgin from heaven...visiting Hell To the man above her, she just ain't nothin' And she doesn't like the view She doesn't like the view (2x) But he sinks himself deep Oh, can't touch the bottom In too deep, yeah...oh, can't touch the bottom Can't touch the bottom Deep, yeah... Oh, yeah, the bottom, yeah... (6x) Ohh... 11) RELEASE Father...ooh...oh...oh... I see the world, feel the chill Which way to go, windowsill I see the world's on a rocking horse of time I see the verse in the rain Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh... Oh, dear dad, can you see me now I am myself, like you somehow I'll ride the wave where it takes me I'll hold the pain...Release me... Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh... Oh, dear dad, can you see me now I am myself, like you somehow I'll wait up in the dark for you to speak to me I'll open up...Release me... Release me (3x) Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...